For most of my life, I had zero desire to engage in service work. It was a chore I dreaded doing but pushed through so I could boost my resume. I can recall a handful of times when I laughed and confidently declared: “I’d never be a missionary… but God bless those people!”
So you can imagine the level of irony I experienced a few years ago when God spoke one, very simple word to me: "missions."
Amidst my shock, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. And as I spent weeks and months praying and wrestling through that word, I found myself eager and excited to be used by the Lord in a new way! That small but God-sized whisper became the desire of my heart... yet, I was still hesitant. There were so many unknowns and I had no way of controlling them, which scared me. I wondered how taking a gap year to serve would affect me professionally... I had a plan for my life after college that would set me up for a profitable career and life. How could I abandon that?
During that period of decisionmaking, the Holy Spirit gently led me to realize that (a) there’s no blueprint for a successful life and that (b) my most precious possessions/plans are safest when trusted into His hands. With that single word from God (“missions”), lots of encouragement from my closest friends, and a desperation to learn more about his heart and his plan for my life, I embarked upon a seven-month, four-country, three-continent missionary expedition.
As I followed the Lord’s leading I began to trust him more freely and fully. The last several years have been a journey where he provides everything! He's my source of compassion, patience, joy, strength, humility, and endurance (to name a few). He has walked with me during moments of great strength and utter weakness. He has held my hand through the good times and the bad, using each experience to draw me closer and reveal more of his heart for me and for the world. And at this time in my life, He has presented me with an opportunity to play a part in His story by sending me out and into the world.
"Then I heard the Lord asking, 'Whom should I send as a messenger to this people? Who will go for us?' I said, 'Here I am. Send Me.'"